Is it all worth it?

EXERCISE MIN. CALS. BURNED             Dancing: Fast, ballet, twist 30 288   Dancing: Fast, ballet, twist 40 384   Walk 15 min/mile 15 108   Dancing: Fast, ballet, twist 25 240

I've got the exerciseing thing down with no problem. Biggest Loser has got nothing on me int hat department ... I can do the water with no problem at all but when it comes to food ... I just don't know what my problem is. I did manage to lose weight from last week. 196.4 this morning which puts me down about a pound. I need to stop looking at where I once was & go from where I am right now. I need to stop asking myself if it is all worth it. My days are spent exercising til I pretty much have no energy left just so I can hope to lose something. Some people have asked me if I'm exercising to much. Well, a few months ago I wanted to know myself so I ate 1500 calories a day & walked for 30 min. a day. That's how I got to the 190's and for some reason I can't seem to get out of them.

	Cal	Fiber	Fat	Carbs	Prtn
Milk, nonfat, 1 cup	86	0	0	12	8
Wheat Chex Cereal, 2 cup (1 serving)	207	7	1	49	6
	293	7	2	60	14
Bread, wheat (including toast), 2 slice	130	2	2	24	5
Kraft Free American Cheese Singles, 1 slice	31	0	0	2	5
Ham, extra lean, (5% fat), 1 slice (6-1/4" x 4" x 1/16")	37	0	1	0	5
Yogurt, Yoplait Light, Strawberry, 6 oz	100	0	0	19	5
	298	2	4	45	20
HEALTHY CHOICE, healthy choice herb chicken, 1 serving	280	5	6	37	18
	280	5	6	37	18
None
	871	14	11	143	52
	1500 - 1800	25 - 35	30 - 50	251 - 362	60 - 195

 I know I know ... so not enough calories. I'm hoping I will find my appetite somewhere today. I have the blahs big time. I don't want to be around anyone ... DH is in the field off & on until Friday ... I'm on the verge of tears ... and the worst part of my day. I'm actually looking into private schools for the kids to go to. They have been fighting so much latley that I just can't take it anymore. I told them today that if they faught anymore they would go to the public schools. They both cried for a few minutes but I shit you not ... less than an hour later they were at it again. Maybe being apart will help them appreciate how good they had it here. I'm hoping private schools won't cost an arm & a leg ... I would hate to send them to the school up the road cause it isn't great. As far as I know crime is very low as is drugs but so are their testing. We are one of the worst in all of Alabama ... one of the reasons I have been sticking it out with homeschooling.