Stop the Insanity!

Remember Susan Powter? Well, my videos that I won on ebay came in today & after reading the backs of most of them I settled on this one. It said step optional & since I have been stepping for a long time I decided to go ahead & pull mine out for an optimal workout. OMG, this video is like no other step video I have ever done. The music starts slow & I'm thinking oh crap ... this is gonna be a total waste of time. 5 minutes into the warm up & my arms are feeling fatiged. You use your arms as much as you want & for me after the first 5 minuts my arms were pretty much spent. It may have been because lots of repitition on my shoulders bothers me ... I have major shoulder issues. Anyway, she states over & over again to tuck you tummy which I love this reminder ... she also says don't dance around, pay attention to your muscles. Don't kick your leg out, push it out. Let me tell ya, by 30 minutes my legs felt like they were going to fall off. I did push through the full 45 minutes but wow ... I bet I'll be sore tomorrow.

  Onto my food. I know some of you are used to my meal plans & tell me that you have been taking my ideas & running with them ... I think that's great, I hope it's working for you. Unfortunately, my own food plan isn't working for me. I have tried about every diet out there & none of them work for me so I'm not gonna worry about keeping track of my food for a while. I'm going to choose smart balanced foods, stop when I feel full, eat when I feel hungry & eat whatever kind of food I want.

This journey is not about quick fixes & big weight losses. It's about finding a way to live healthfully for the rest of my life. If that means I only lose 2 ounces a week then that's all I will lose. I'm jealous of everyone who loses 3-6 pounds in a week but I know my body well enough to know that everytime I have lost quickly I gain it back even quicker. Yo-yoing up &down on the scale isn't the way I want to live my life. I don't want to be worried about eating a slice of pizza or celebrating my childrens b-day's with a piece of cake. As long as I do portion control & limit these not as good for me foods I think I will be just fine.

I'm tired of worrying what my weight will be in the morning ... I'm tired of planning out my meals & sticking to an every 2-3 hour food schedule. It's just to much for me to deal with. It's also not the way I want to live my life.

My daughter will be 11 on Tuesday ... the age where weight starts impacting her vision of her self worth. I don't want her to constantly see how unhappy I am about my weight & then have her think that she needs to be rail thin to matter. I want her to know that she's beautiful inside & out no matter her shape or size. That's a lesson I need to put in place for myself & live it ... be her example.