Monday, August 27, 2007

Thrown for a loop

I was so disappointed in myself this morning when I stepped on the scale. I just don't understand how I can keep back stepping all my hard work. I am killing myself all week long to do right by my body & then the weekend comes & I take a fluck it all attitude. I don't know why!

My calorie intake totally sucks rotten eggs today ... not to many calories but not near enough. It's always so drastic with me ... if I weigh in and I'm depressed about the number it can go two ways ... I keep the I don't give a chit attitude or I'm so sick to my stomach with disappointment that I have to make myself eat what little that I do.

Maybe tomorrow will be better. Seems like all us Dieting girls are having problems sticking to our plan while my girl KathiJane over at ThinChics is slowly passing us all by. I can remember when she first came to ThinChics at 179 pounds ... this morning 203. Before long she will be passing me right by. I don't know why it feels different this time for me. I feel like no matter what I do I'm just screwed. I will never lose this weight. I can maintain around this weight a long as I exercise but one day of poor planning & I pay a huge price. I was almost in tears this morning when DH comes up to me & says I love you no matter your size. I just want to see you happy.

How can a person truly be happy when they can't see past the layer of flab that they face each morning? When you figure it out please let me know. Inside is the healthy skinnier me kicking & screaming to come out but this fat thing is beating her down pound by pound.

Onto my day ...


Cal Fiber Fat Carbs Prtn
Regular Coffee, 4 cup (8 fl oz) 9 0 0 0 1
Cream substitute, Coffee-mate fat free, 2 tbsp 20 0 0 4 0
Banana, fresh, 1 medium (7" to 7-7/8" long) 109 3 1 28 1
Curves Honey Crunch Cereal, 1 cup 190 5 1 45 4
Milk, nonfat, 1 cup 86 0 0 12 8
Meal Totals 414 8 2 89 15
Milk, nonfat, 1 cup 86 0 0 12 8
Banana, fresh, 1 medium (7" to 7-7/8" long) 109 3 1 28 1
Curves Honey Crunch Cereal, 1 cup 190 5 1 45 4
Meal Totals 384 8 2 85 14
Beef chuck, arm pot roast, 1 oz 35 0 1 0 6
Baked Potato, with skin, 1 small (1-3/4" to 2-1/2" dia.) 128 3 0 29 3
Carrots, cooked, 0.25 cup slices 14 1 0 3 0
Meal Totals 177 4 1 32 10
Apples, fresh, 1 medium (2-3/4" dia) (approx 3 per lb) 81 4 0 21 0
Grapes, 1 cup, seedless 114 2 1 28 1
Meal Totals 195 5 1 49 1
Daily Totals 1,170 25 7 255 39
Daily Goal 1500 - 1800 25 - 35 30 - 50 251 - 362

60 - 195





  1. Awww Emmi your menu sounds good for today, do'nt give up, I believe in you, Hugs Lisa

  2. Emmi, you are my fearless leader!!!  You can do this.  It is so hard, I know, but we have to keep the faith.  We are getting older too, and it really is not fair that it takes so much more work nowadays to do what we used to do so easily.  

    Hugs, Michele

  3. Stay positive... you can do it... I get like that too. I used to work hard all week and give it up on the weekends... eventually you'll get past it. Goodluck!

  4. girl i tottaly feel how u feel(((((((((((((((((((((hugs)))))))))))))))))))) we will suceed someday i no it, dont give up! hugs tracy

  5. When you find the answer..... let ME know.  I totally suck rotten eggs too.  Always in such a damn hurry to lose weight that I go to the extreme of not eating enough.  I'll lose 5 lbs then I am starving and put that back on in 2 days.  IT SUCKS.... I just can't find that happy medium.  I was back on plan yesterday, but NOT starving myself.  Just really watch the amount of food I am stick in my mouth.  I know it works, but just have to stick to it.  Slow and steady....right???

  6. If this makes u feel better.  I think I weighed Monday at 218 after having cake, ice cream, hot dogs, hamburger, baked beans and this morning the scale said 222 and that's after drinking nothing but water all day for the past 2 days and watching what I eat. What the f@*%.  I am to disgusted.  We will get through this, we can't give up.  Rena