I'm sick ...

OMG, yesterday I was so sick to my stomach that I thought I was going to throw up. I have a freaky system ... even if I try to make myself throw up I just can't. Good thing I never wanted to be a model! he he he

As a result of being sick to my stomach I didn't eat all that much. My weight did come down though. Yesterday it was 199.5 ... this morning it's a pound less. It won't last if I can't get enough food in me though. My head is still pounding, TOM should show up tomorrow ... blahhhhhh

I did exercise yesterday ... one of the Dance the Inches off videos that I have already talked about. I was going to do a walk with my son but he said he prefered to ride the bike for a little while to break it up.

  At least he's getting in activity which is more than he used to do. He lost a whole pound in a week just by moving. He still eats like a horse but I know he's going to be a BIG guy. He's always been out of his height & weight range since a month old so why would that change now? The doc ordered him on solids at a month cause he just wasn't getting enough to eat. I would give him a bottle & an hour later the only way for him to stop crying was for another bottle. His friend who it about to turn 12 weights 70 pounds & is almost 5 foot ... my son 130 pounds & 5 foot 3. He'll be taller than me probably by next year.

Ok ok ok ... onto what I ate yesterday:

	Cal	Fiber	Fat	Carbs	Prtn
Regular Coffee, 4 cup (8 fl oz)	9	0	0	0	1
Cream substitute, Coffee-mate fat free, 2 tbsp	20	0	0	4	0
Curves Honey Crunch Cereal, 1 cup	190	5	1	45	4
Milk, nonfat, 1 cup	86	0	0	12	8
	305	5	2	61	13
Lean Pockets Turkey Broccoli and Cheese, 1 serving	270	3	7	39	13
Kool Aid Sugar Sweetened Drink Mix, 1 Serving	64	0	0	16	0
	334	3	7	55	13
Kool Aid Sugar Sweetened Drink Mix, 1 Serving	64	0	0	16	0
Kool Aid Sugar Sweetened Drink Mix, 1 Serving	64	0	0	16	0
McDonald's Iced Tea, Large (32 fl oz), 1 serving	0	0	0	0	0
McDonald's Southwest Grilled Chicken Salad, 1 serving	320	7	9	30	30
Kraft Light Done Right Ranch Salad Dressing, 2 tbsp	77	0	7	3	0
	524	7	16	66	30
Nestle Raisinets Chocolate Covered Raisins, 10 pieces	41	1	2	7	0
Milk, nonfat, 1 cup	86	0	0	12	8
	127	1	2	19	9
	1,290	16	27	201	66
	1500 - 1800	25 - 35	30 - 50	251 - 362	60 - 195

Thrown for a loop

I was so disappointed in myself this morning when I stepped on the scale. I just don't understand how I can keep back stepping all my hard work. I am killing myself all week long to do right by my body & then the weekend comes & I take a fluck it all attitude. I don't know why!

My calorie intake totally sucks rotten eggs today ... not to many calories but not near enough. It's always so drastic with me ... if I weigh in and I'm depressed about the number it can go two ways ... I keep the I don't give a chit attitude or I'm so sick to my stomach with disappointment that I have to make myself eat what little that I do.

Maybe tomorrow will be better. Seems like all us Dieting girls are having problems sticking to our plan while my girl KathiJane over at ThinChics is slowly passing us all by. I can remember when she first came to ThinChics at 179 pounds ... this morning 203. Before long she will be passing me right by. I don't know why it feels different this time for me. I feel like no matter what I do I'm just screwed. I will never lose this weight. I can maintain around this weight a long as I exercise but one day of poor planning & I pay a huge price. I was almost in tears this morning when DH comes up to me & says I love you no matter your size. I just want to see you happy.

How can a person truly be happy when they can't see past the layer of flab that they face each morning? When you figure it out please let me know. Inside is the healthy skinnier me kicking & screaming to come out but this fat thing is beating her down pound by pound.

Onto my day ...

 

	Cal	Fiber	Fat	Carbs	Prtn
Regular Coffee, 4 cup (8 fl oz)	9	0	0	0	1
Cream substitute, Coffee-mate fat free, 2 tbsp	20	0	0	4	0
Banana, fresh, 1 medium (7" to 7-7/8" long)	109	3	1	28	1
Curves Honey Crunch Cereal, 1 cup	190	5	1	45	4
Milk, nonfat, 1 cup	86	0	0	12	8
	414	8	2	89	15
Milk, nonfat, 1 cup	86	0	0	12	8
Banana, fresh, 1 medium (7" to 7-7/8" long)	109	3	1	28	1
Curves Honey Crunch Cereal, 1 cup	190	5	1	45	4
	384	8	2	85	14
Beef chuck, arm pot roast, 1 oz	35	0	1	0	6
Baked Potato, with skin, 1 small (1-3/4" to 2-1/2" dia.)	128	3	0	29	3
Carrots, cooked, 0.25 cup slices	14	1	0	3	0
	177	4	1	32	10
Apples, fresh, 1 medium (2-3/4" dia) (approx 3 per lb)	81	4	0	21	0
Grapes, 1 cup, seedless	114	2	1	28	1
	195	5	1	49	1
	1,170	25	7	255	39
	1500 - 1800	25 - 35	30 - 50	251 - 362	60 - 195

 

 

I totally suck ...

big nasty rotten eggs.

Yep, you guess it. Today was weigh in day & the scale was back to being his usual hateful self. 197.2 this morning. Yea for me ... NOT!!! It is my fault, I haven't been eating as many fruits & veggies as I did that first week. I get burned out on the same foods day in & day out rather quickly. There's only so many ways you can eat an apple or a banana ... there are only so many ways to eat a salad when your eating it 2 times a day everyday.

Anyway, I did exercise 6/7 days last week, got 10 cups of water in all but one day & although as usual I screwed up over the weekend with my food I didn't do bad the rest of the week. I had a bowl of ice cream the last 3 nights ... DH bough chocolate yesterday & yup ... I had 3-4 handfulls of chocolate covered peanuts, chocolate clusters ... I think that's the only thing bad I grabbed for. DH made a pot roast with potatoes, onions & carrots for dinner. He made biscuits to gowith it & I had 2 so that wasn't that great either.

We did go to the nature trail ... we set out to do the 2.3 mile but it quickly became apparent that our son is in worse shape then I am. Less than a mile into the walk he starts complaining his knees were hurting him. At first I was like yeah whatever get your butt moving. No way can I be healthier than you ... I think I am far more conditioned then he is. We took the 2 mile trail instead ... he was blood red faced ... limping ... I still thought yeah ok, way to play it off. For the rest of the night & this morning he has been limping around & taking baby asprin for his knees. I laid it out straight ... every weekend we are walking that track, every day here at home he is either riding his bike outdoors, my bike inside, the treadmill, walk video, or outside walk. No way should an 11 year old boy not be able to walk a 2 mile walk without his knees feeling like their going to be giving out. He just had a physical at the beginning of the summer so I know he is basically healthy. Doc said he needed to lose a little weight ... but he's a child so a diet is a BIG no-no. What else is there but movement?

Video of the Day

You can find this product online for $10 or less. Just search crunch cardio salsa.

This workout is Spicy hot and energetic, well-designed, fun-filled Crunch Cardio Salsa workout keeps you burning body fat as you dance, wave your arms, and swing your hips to live drums with a Latin flair. Salsa, meringue, samba, and cha cha steps highlight these high-energy aerobic dance patterns, taught one step at a time, then building gradually into combinations, my favorite way to learn! The footwork is fast-moving but not difficult to learn, thanks to the (almost to perky) instructor Giselle Roque de Escobar. She performs the workout accompanied by 6 bare-bellied women and one man, and an exuberant and skillful drummer. Everyone is fit, young, lean, and enthusiastic. Yes, I dream about having their bodies ... The workout heats up quickly and burns for 35-40 minutes. I don't like to count the cool down but some people do. Recommended for aerobic dance fans who want to spice up their workouts with a Latin flavor.

What the Box says;

Burn Fat With Sizzling Latin Dance Moves! Welcome to CRUNCH Fitness! You dont need to travel south of the border for a hot, hot workout! This low impact fiesta is packed with fat blasting choreography, sizzling with a spicy Latin dance flavor that turns up the body heat to ""caliente."" Even if youre not a dancer, Giselle will break down these easy-to-follow dance steps so you can follow along. Put some Latin attitude into your hip sway and get loose. Weve added live drums for extra fun. Youll burn the fat as you burn up the dance floor, feeling the beat of the merengue, mambo, cha cha, samba and more. Say ""Adios"" to boring workouts!! All Fitness Levels. No equipment necessary. The CRUNCH Philosophy: The CRUNCH fitness program welcomes people from all walks of life regardless of shape, size or ability. We created a workout environment that is not competitive or judgmental. Enjoy these favorite classes with imaginative instructors in an atmosphere that makes working out fun. Meet the instructor: Giselle Roque de Escobar, instructor at CRUNCH Miami. Certified fitness professional teaching for over 18 years, as well as personal trainer. Fitness philosophy: Never underestimate what your body can do; strive for new limits. Favorite splurge food: Peanut M & Ms. Amazon.com description

15 min ab workout

Master any Yoga Pose

staying power Master any pose with these yoga-specific strength moves Next time you breeze through the weight room on your way to Bikram, consider this: All those Zen-squelching squats and dumbbells can help you nail strength-based poses like chair or chaturanga. Sure, that'll happen on its own if you practice yoga long enough. But strength training will get you there ASAP, says Lynn Burgess, director of Yoga from the Heart in Sarasota, Florida. To spend the least amount of time amping your om, follow this 15-minute workout 3 days a week. Soon you'll be hanging out in warrior while your classmates beg for mercy. Master this...Warrior I With this...Forward Lunge with Dumbbells Grab a set of 8- to 10-pound dumbbells and stand with your feet hip-width apart, arms at your sides. Step forward with your left leg and lower yourself until your left thigh is parallel to the floor. Stand up and repeat, lunging with your right leg. Do 8 to 10 reps per side. Master this...Chaturanga Dandasana With this...Modified Pushup Get in plank position with your wrists directly below your shoulders, toes tucked under, and abs braced. Lower your knees to the floor, then simultaneously bend your elbows until they reach 90 degrees and lower your chest until it's about 3 inches from the floor. Push up to start and repeat. Do 15 to 20 reps. Master this...Chair pose With this...Dumbbell Squat Grab a set of 8- to 10-pound dumbbells and stand with your feet hip-width apart, arms at your sides. Without letting your knees jut out past your toes, lower your hips until your thighs are as close to parallel to the floor as possible while keeping good form. Hold for 5 seconds, then push up to standing and repeat. Do 15 to 20 reps. Master this...Supported headstand With this...Elbow-Supported Prone Plank Get on your hands and knees and place your elbows on the floor directly beneath your shoulders, palms flat on the floor. Without moving your arms, brace your abs and lift your knees so your body is in a plank position. Hold for 1 minute. Lower, rest for 1 minute, and repeat.

Appeared in the September 2007 issue of Women's Health

Food choices

	Cal	Fiber	Fat	Carbs	Prtn
Banana, fresh, 1 medium (7" to 7-7/8" long)	109	3	1	28	1
Curves Honey Crunch Cereal, 1 cup	190	5	1	45	4
Milk, nonfat, 1 cup	86	0	0	12	8
Regular Coffee, 4 cup (8 fl oz)	9	0	0	0	1
Cream substitute, Coffee-mate fat free, 2 tbsp	20	0	0	4	0
	414	8	2	89	15
Lean Pockets Turkey Broccoli and Cheese, 1 serving	270	3	7	39	13
Grapes, 1 cup, seedless	114	2	1	28	1
	384	5	8	67	14
Ground beef, lean, 3 oz	225	0	18	0	15
Green Beans (snap), 1 cup	34	4	0	8	2
Mashed Potatoes, 1 cup	162	4	1	37	4
Cheddar Cheese, 0.5 oz	57	0	5	0	4
	477	8	24	45	25
Granola Bars, soft, uncoated, chocolate chip, 2 bar (1.5 oz)	357	4	14	59	6
Milk, nonfat, 1 cup	86	0	0	12	8
	443	4	15	71	15
	1,718	24	48	271	68
	1500 - 1800	25 - 35	30 - 50	251 - 362	60 - 195

I hate my frickin scale ... I'm back to 197.

Video of the day

Product Description
Fat to Firm Fast is a super efficient way to burn calories, while toning up your entire body. Fitness expert Michelle Dozois has chosen the most effective training methods commonly used by personal trainers to create four short workout circuits for this program. The simple circuits make the most of every minute by using multi-muscle group exercises, targeted toning and easy-to-follow mini cardio segments that will help you firm up and slim down fast. The Pick Your Level System Makes Working Out As Easy As 1-2-3. Here’s How: • Just Push Play—there’s no programming required. • Within the workout, three instructors each show the moves modified for a specific level: 1, 2 or 3. • You simply follow along and do each move at the level that feels right for you. Remember, this is your workout – you don’t have to stick with one level throughout the entire routine. You may prefer to stick mostly with Level 1, but choose a few Level 2 or 3 moves occasionally. You can customize the workout as you progress or as your energy level varies from day to day. Whatever level you chose, know that Michelle specifically designed this program so that all of the levels are really effective. One or two sets of light hand weights can be used for this workout.

 

I paid $10 at Walmart for this baby. I like it cause I can do one of the 3 levels or mix it up & do a combination of any of the 3. Even though I consider myself advanced ... I don't feel that I'm as advanced as level 3 on this video. I feel like I could use this video for a very long time & still benefit from it.

 

What I don't like about this video ... I think there should be more reps in the weight training portions. You do 6-8 reps then take a break. When your using light weights (as deseginated by the instructor on most moves) ... it just isn't enough.

just for today

Just For Today
I'll stay on plan
Do all the exercise I can
I'll push myself a little more
Just for today
I'll up my score

I'll eat my fruit
And veggies too
Challenge my team
To follow suit
Just for today
I'll walk my tread
For every step gets me ahead

Just for today
I'll reach new heights
Then at days end
I'll sleep tonight
Accomplish this, content I'll feel
Tomorrow's goals will seem more real

Water, water can't get enough
I'll surely be ready
To kick up a fuss
But if in my plans
I falter still
When new day dawns
Push on...I will

Whoops, forgotten day

This is what I did for Wednesday ...

Video of the day

This is Yoga Booty Ballet, Master Series. It is a 2 disc set that has Goddess Booty which works your buns for about 20 minutes. The first couple times I did this one I really felt it the next day but as I get better with the moves it doesn't feel as sore. The second disc; Yoga Core ... WOW, you're gonna feel your abs ... their gonna feel like their on fire. Although I haven't done this video in a while I used to do it all the time & the burn was always there during the workout. I like the burn though ... lets me know I'm doing the move right.

I found this video at Target for about $15 and if your looking to tighten & tone your body, enjoy yoga/pilates moves then this video is probably for you. The 2 instructors give moves for begginner, intermediate, & advanced celulite burning hopefulls. I say this because they have a move that they claim takes the pot holes away. I personally have yet to see this happen but then again (I probably have 80 pounds on these ladies) if I were as thin as them I probably wouldn't have dimples either.

Food wise ... I SUCKED ROTTEN EGGS. I just felt so hungry all day long. I don't know what my problem was. If I didn't eat when I felt hungry my head would start to hurt really bad ... if I ate the ache would go away within 20-30 minutes. Who knows what was going on.

	Cal	Fiber	Fat	Carbs	Prtn
Regular Coffee, 4 cup (8 fl oz)	9	0	0	0	1
Cream substitute, Coffee-mate fat free, 2 tbsp	20	0	0	4	0
Curves Honey Crunch Cereal, 1 cup	190	5	1	45	4
Milk, nonfat, 1 cup	86	0	0	12	8
	305	5	2	61	13
Lean Pockets Turkey Broccoli and Cheese, 1 serving	270	3	7	39	13
Romaine Lettuce (salad), 0.5 cup, shredded	4	0	0	1	0
Kraft Light Done Right Ranch Salad Dressing, 2 tbsp	77	0	7	3	0
	351	4	14	43	14
McDonald's Newman's Own Creamy Southwest Dressing (1.5 fl oz), 1 serving	100	0	6	11	1
McDonald's Southwest Grilled Chicken Salad, 1 serving	320	7	9	30	30
	420	7	15	41	31
Nestle Demet's Turtles Candy, 4 piece	330	2	19	39	4
Milk, nonfat, 1 cup	86	0	0	12	8
Banana, fresh, 1 medium (7" to 7-7/8" long)	109	3	1	28	1
Apples, fresh, 1 medium (2-3/4" dia) (approx 3 per lb)	81	4	0	21	0
Peanut Butter, chunk style, 2 tbsp	188	3	16	7	8
Strawberries, fresh, 1 cup, halves	46	3	1	11	1
	840	14	37	118	23
	1,916	30	67	262	81
	1500 - 1800	25 - 35	30 - 50	251 - 362	60 - 195

Yesterday morning my scale snickered as I went up .5 pounds to make it 194.5 ... this morning it was laughing so hard that I almost got teary eyed ... 196. I know bodies can fluctuate during the course of a week but darn it anyway ... that just sucks.

Today I will be doing more than just pilates moves.